Something about birth, death and rebirth?
I got this in my email yesterday, and considered going but couldn’t muster the troops.
Shambhala Day marks the end of one year’s cycle and the beginning of a new one. To dispel the karmic accumulation of personal, social, and environmental chaos at the year’s end, all students are encouraged to [...]
I am bound to this. Irrevocably, inescapably bound:
It is always a negative. Always. I have had one possible positive, but looking back I do believe it was the residue left from the trigger.
Eight IUIs, 1 IVF, 1 IVF that became IUI #8. Always negative.
My insurance allows me 4 egg retrievals in my lifetime, and I’m [...]
I took a risk. I chose IUI instead of IVF.
I wish I could say it was done in the heat of a panicked, adrenaline-overdosed moment, but that would only be partially true. I wish I could say it’s because I felt so alone – a feeling I’ve been struggling with for weeks – and the [...]
My egg retrieval was supposed to be this morning. I don’t have the strength to do anything but copy and paste what I wrote on the IVP:
I “asked” for my IVF to be changed to an IUI. I panicked. There were a thousand reasons why I panicked, not the least of which is my phobia [...]
This morning’s date with the dildocam involved two doctors – TWO – and a nurse. They could see both, but the left will probably be out of commission. It’s sitting behind an artery, and apparently that can cause problems during retrieval. The stats are:
L: 4 follicles
R: 6 follicles
All of the follicles are small and both [...]
I’m better today. And I was better yesterday, too. And Friday afternoon, after my boss said, “Can I ask you something that may sound offensive but I don’t mean it to be offensive because I love you?” and when I said, “Sure,” (because I really like my boss – I’m not shitting you here, I [...]
I’ve gotten a comment or two, and an email or twelve, on why I’m not writing about my next IVF cycle. I know people want to be supportive, so here’s the low down: I went in for my baseline ultrasound and blood work this morning, and will find out when they call if I start [...]
In case you were wondering, you know? Wondering things like: Does Shannon still have a blog? Considering I just paid for 2 years of hosting and domain registering, the answer is: Yes. Nominally. I have a somewhat blog, I guess you could say.
I just don’t have much to write about. Oh yes, there is the [...]
I took today off work to go to the university to figure out stuff. That was my plan, anyway. But then yesterday, what I thought were my two most important meetings (and the only ones that required appointments) cancelled. I was pretty darn discouraged, and thought, Why bother?
But I’d told people that I’d be on campus, [...]
Um, yeah. It’s been a while. Sorry about that.
At first, I wanted to wait until the progesterone was out of my system before blogging. I’d hoped that my inability to cope was chemically induced; maybe waiting a while would mean this post was happy and cheerful and upbeat and positive? Because we all know that [...]
