In case you were wondering, you know? Wondering things like: Does Shannon still have a blog? Considering I just paid for 2 years of hosting and domain registering, the answer is: Yes. Nominally. I have a somewhat blog, I guess you could say.
I just don’t have much to write about. Oh yes, there is the minutia of my life: I’m crocheting an awesome market bag in blue textured cotton yarn that makes me happy, I had a fantabulous Christmas and Hanukkah, and I’m FREAKING OUT about grad school starting on January 12. Oh, and I started lupron injections for my next IVF cycle last night. Fun times.
The deal is that I’m SO SICK of infertility, you know? I’m sick of it defining me and defining this blog. I’m sick of 2009, where all I can remember about the year was one failed cycle after another, culminating in an IVF cycle that was the procreative equivalent of blowing chunks. Seriously, I’m sick of it.
And I have very little life besides trying to start a family, which is pathetic. And all the things I did before it was TIME TO MAKE THE BABY? Before all that crap started, I traveled, I spent way too much money on entertainment and clothes and jewelry and vintage handbags (none of which I wear), and now? Now I can’t afford to travel or shop and even if I could, I cringe at all the money I’ve wasted over the years. I’d like to see turquoise water again (and soon, yes, soon), but honestly? At this point I can barely afford to pay my bills, what with IVF#2 and all the little extras that go along with it. Extras like medicine co-pays that doubled in October. And $50 co-pays for specialist visits (and yes, the RE is considered a specialist). All those little extras that I didn’t budget for. And even if I didn’t have all those little extras to retro-budget for, even though I’ve always been one to live below my means, I feel ill at how much I COULD have been saving, you know? I wouldn’t want to buy vintage handbags even if I could. I think the only luxury I consider “worth it” anymore is travel. And scuba diving. Ok, and maybe a vintage handbag, but only if it’s a Bobby Jerome. I do love me the Bobby Jeromes.
I’m really not this grumpy, I swear. I’m actually in a good mood. Lotsa things are making me happy, like snow and a week off work. Have I told you about my Hanukkah Bush? I named it Charley Brown. I love my Hanukkah Bush. I bought it at the dollar store, it’s 6 feet high, and you can see right through it. My cats have spent many a rapturous day/night/waking second playing with what they consider the Best.Toy.EVAR. Every morning, I have to wear shoes downstairs. The first thing I do in the mroning is clean up the broken ornaments, which actually doesn’t bother me because 1) they were whatever was left in mid-January last year at Target, 2) I don’t really like them, and 3) watching my muffins have THAT much fun makes me laugh so hard my sides hurt. We all enjoy the tree in our own way.
All this rambling to say: What does one blog about these days???
I bought shatterproof ornaments this year, after the feline tree-based mayhem/havoc of Christmas 2008. They’re the best purchase I’ve made all year.
Yeah, I’m all for the tsubame bashing!
But seriously, you’re such a witty, hilarious person that I’m SURE you can find something to write about that is not related to baby making. Perhaps, as has been suggested, you can tell us a bit more about the grad school stuff. I’m sure once it actually starts, it’ll provide plenty of blogging fodder., And you MUST post a picture of the hannukah bush!
Grad school starting soon is super-exciting.
What we’ll do for our furry babies to have fun…
2009 can suck it as far as I’m concerned. Bring on the 2010!
Your story about the tree absolutely made me smile. Thanks for sharing it. As to all the rest, I have no words to offer.
wow grad school on Jan 12, now that’s exciting… the lupron not so much, hard to be excited about impending mood swings
Wishing you an early Happy New Year, I hope 2010 brings many excitements
Me too.
I don’t think I’ve updated in at least 2 months. Actually, I’m thinking it’s run it’s course and it’s time to delete it.
Uh, if you have a shortage of money and an excess of jewelry and clothes and vintage handbags, check out the miracle that is eBay! Or Craigslist, but then you actually have to encounter people…eBay, you only have to deal with the mail person. Whenever my husband starts getting bored/anxious/antsy, he either gives stuff to Goodwill or sells it somewhere.
Happy New Year – I hope 2010 has much more to offer!
You could tell us all about the changes in your IVF protocol.
We could bash ass clowns like tsubame (from the last post).
You could take more pretty pictures for us to look at.
You could show us the pretty market bag you are making.
Smooches and Happy New Year